Pause, Reset and refocus
Thursday 22nd March 2018: A week today I was supposed to have performed my play LITE at the mac theatre. As I find myself with my right arm in a sling and the weight of retreat frustration and the wooziness of the pain killers. I asked why did I have to dislocate my shoulder? The answer is to focus on the here and now and look at the people that are around me. Where are those people? As I realised some were absent physically and some were absent emotionally, I wondered. Are they giving me encouragement? Do they make me feel good about myself and my decisions? Are they being a positive advocate for me and the company? The answer was no, no, and NO! I had people around me that was draining my energy and instead of having faith and seeing solutions they just saw the obstacles. This is why my arm stopped time. Pain to make me recognise the pain and hurt from those in disguise trusted doubters and helplessness as this showed who really was around to help me physically, emotionally, mentally. That's when I had to make tough desicions and be honest with myself. If I stay on this path with these people, then I will never get off the grey path of self-destruction. once I get to the end of the that road those people will follow their own road and leave me in at a deaden with no food, no clothes..., ok I went a little OTT, but you get the idea. So, my arm, was the best thing to have happened to me and sometimes we are constantly going and going, not looking up and not noticing why we can't move forward. It’s because we have not paused, reset and refocused our energy. We have to reassess our circles and who in it is really pulling us up. looking for solutions to make a positive outcome. Wishing you the best? If they are not doing that this is your time to pause, reset and focus. Make time for yourself, stop rushing and slow down. Surround yourself with wishing you Wellers and positive Pauline’s and get rid of Negative Nigel’s and Parasite power drainers. You are what you surround yourself with.